Humbled.


I so admire people who always seem to be happy, even when there are things wrong in their life. People say to me "You're so positive!" but when it comes to my family...and my inner thoughts...that's not always the case.

I have a few things that my brain likes to whinge about. I'm single, I sometimes feel lonely, I've yet to meet someone with hair like mine (I do not exaggerate - it's mainly how people remember me), I am not tan and sadly never will be, I still struggle with meeting new people (dang those perky extroverts).

Most days I manage to catch myself before going down any negative track. But. That doesn't mean there aren't days where I slip and twirl down a spiral of moodiness and why-me-questions. I found the blog of a girl I used to know, who at the time was in a relationship, the Facebook posting photos, holding hands, showing up everywhere together - you know the type? Anyway, her recent posts were on her "sad and disappointing" heartbreak story and how this past year was very difficult.

It really put me in my place. I believe it's described as *being humbled*. I realised how fortunate I am to have missed out so far on any nasty breakups, and it hit me that being single isn't something to moan about.

I just realised how my "problems" aren't even problems really. Having unique hair is actually a wonderful blessing,  realising that I'm never alone because God is always with me, fake tan exists (if my shade of white isn't cutting it), and talking to strangers isn't a skill that's acquired in a day, darl.

I have a wonderful life. And it's a wonderful thing that I can write that sentence with full authority. It's not perfect, but it's still wonderful. Let's face it, God knows what I need better than I do and someday I will meet my man. And figure out how to tame my locks, perfect my recipe for being in the sun but not burning, and discover how to face the world my way.

"And my God will meet all your needs according to his glorious riches in Christ Jesus."
Phillipians 4:19

Madison xx

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4 comments:

  1. OMGG!!! I totally agree with the hair!!! I can never find someone with as curly of hair
    Bailey
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  2. Hahahaha I've just had to accept my curls!

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  3. Man this is all so true! I too have lonely days, and the pain of a breakup is seriously the most heart-wrenching thing I have ever been through. Thanks for sharing your inspiring words. I'm right beside you on embracing skin that reflects the sun. Keep writing your beautiful blog! I look forward to reading more.

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  4. Your first ever blog post was posted on my birthday!

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